This isn't the first time I'm clawing my way up from the shit, but hopefully it's the last (until my mid-life crisis)

I'm not going to force this Blog to be fancy or anything. It's here to document my thrilling ascent from the cess-pool that I've drowned myself in over the last four or five years. This shit pit derived from the turd life.

Anyway, I'll start off simple with a list of things that I really oughta do for myself before they drag me deeper into the mire. Bear with me during this boring phase, things should get happier and more exciting soon. The hardest part is realizing that I have to do things for myself by myself.

1. My way of dealing with things that suck is usually to pick up and leave--to sever ties with whatever shitty situation I'm dealing with. This has left me in a couple of bad situations for a few reasons. The first is that I never actually offically withdrew from Salem State. Now they are threatening to bill me for another semester that I didn't attend. Luckily I was able to prove to them that I wasn't there at all, and so I need to call tomorrow and make sure that everything is all right (for peace of mind).

2. Another bad situation derived from running away: I left work early on Sunday. Although I'm sick of almost everyone at the Loaf now, I really shouldn't burn any bridges. I only have a few more shifts, one of them on Thursday morning. I need to apologize to Andy, even though I have a few gripes left unspoken. As I write this, I have gotten Aleah to take my Friday shifts and my Sunday shift, so I'm not working with Sara at all, the root of all the problems. Which is excellent. I'm going to ask for Saturday off too, since I want to go to PA with AJ.

I feel like the things I've been pulling are classic "Matt Sweeneys." The thought of that disgusts me. As always, I hate the reputation I've given myself, and I'm disgusted I haven't broken out of it by now.

3. Back in Salem State news: I need to figure out exactly what I owe to SSC in anticipation for when they bill me. Most likey this will happen before I am enrolled in another college. Which brings me to my fourth order of business:

4. Apply for colleges for next year's spring semester.As usual, I haven't checked out any colleges and I don't know what I want to do. This subject is too complicated to expand upon now.

5. I have a job interview opportunity at a place called the Wrap Shak. They specailize in, gasp, wraps! I would work in the kitchen, not with people. That would be ideal. I'm sick of customers for now. Hopefully I get the job, and they called me almost immediately after I dropped off the application.

6. Waiting for some internet transactions to come through. I also have to ship something tomorrow. Soon my online empire will be established (seriously, I'm hoping I'll have some sort of small success with this business endeavor; it would be nice).

7. Financial Dilemma: Pay a little over $300 for the convenience of a gym (for a year), or figure out how to get in good shape on my own? Or I guess I could get a checking account and do it monthly. If i choose to do it on my own...

8. ...I need new tires for my bike. Not a huge ordeal at all, might even be fun, I might learn something.

9. As ever, my credit card bill. It went from almost $4000 to $1400 in around 2 months. One of the only recent things I've done I'm truly proud of. With my penultimate paycheck from the Loaf, that will go down to probably $1250.

I'll be able to sell my school books back to Manchester Tech too. That should net me another $100. Wahoo.

10. Inspecting my teeth closely has revealed a decent sized cavity where recently there was just the faint whisperings of one. Dentist is a definite stop on my list of important things.

I'd also like to expand creatively (specifically in my writing) and enrich myself with different things. A few easy topics to start with would be: music, news, politics. If you ever want hit me with some knowledge, I'm game. I don't feel like I'm living up to my potential.

Tomorrow I'm going to visit Jenna. She's leaving for the Navy at 4:00 PM. I wish her luck, but I regret not getting to know her as well as I should. I'm sad that she's not as close to Mel as she once was. Such is life (ooh boy, do I sound wise or what? yeah, that's a +3 modifier to wisdom, betch).

I'm not gonna lie, I hope this blog is interesting and popular one day (or I hope it at least leads to other opportunities that I have in mind).